The last part (holding myself accountable) is something I've struggled with for a long time. It's easy to justify things. It's my birthday, I was good all week, it's gluten free.. the list goes on. While there are many reasons to indulge in something naughty, there are far more reasons to stay on track and reach your goals.
While I was in Ames, I had my mind set that I would not treat myself and I wouldn't have to deal with "guilt" for enjoying a good time. However, I had a few alcoholic drinks (while Paleo, still not allowed on the 21DSD). I didn't overdo it, but I wasn't strong willed enough to stay committed to the detox. I can think of this one of two ways.
One: I am a failure, I can't do this, and I should give up and go eat a cake
Two: I'm human, I make mistakes, and I can come back and finish this
Let's be real, I'm finishing this as loyal as possible. If there's one thing I've learned from battling eating disorders, it's that feeling "guilty" or like a failure will only lead to more failures. Food should never be a reward nor a punishment. Eat because you enjoy it, because your body needs it, and because you want to.
Sunday I took the day off from the gym (it's my usual rest day) and I helped my older brother move boxes for his new house. Active rest, ya know? I decided to stay Sunday night in Ames. The alarm clock was set for a 4:30 am workout, but somehow bed sounded more appealing. After work I will be at the gym with gusto. Rule number 4 in the lifting world: Never miss a Monday. I'd say the other three but I don't remember them.
Did anyone else find themselves struggling over the weekend? I don't claim to be perfect, and I never will. The only thing a person can do is their best, and when you fall (which everyone does) make sure you're not afraid to get back up. The ground is dirty.
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